notHIng else Matters

This year has really just begun I mean we’re only 4 months in. I’ll start with the bad, the lows. Basically my low has to do with being out here in Las Vegas. I know I know its Las Vegas how can it be a low. Well I’ll tell you. When all your friends, family, and not to mention your boyfriend lives in Los Angeles Vegas is just about the last place on earth you want to be. I miss home so much and sometime I just get so lonely I cry myself to sleep. It’s hard, so much harder than I ever thought it would be. I never planned to fall in love before I moved here and every time I see him it makes coming back here 100 times harder. The first few days I was back in Vegas after President’s Day were my all time low. I cried so much leaving David it was one of the hardest times I’ve had since we had such a great weekend back in Yuma with his family (one of my high points). When I got back to Vegas I was upset, tired, sad, flat out depressed. I couldn’t even eat for the next few days. It was so weird I’ve never felt like that before. But lets talk about highs.
The love of my life. Need I say more? I want everyone to feel the exact same way I do. I never thought I would find someone who made me feel like this. Sure I believe in love and thought I would find it but not this not like this. This is so much better than I ever could have imagined. He has been my rock. He keeps me sane when I’m here. I think we do that for each other. Whenever one of us is depressed the other pumps them up. We support each other in whatever it is we do and I love that. We have made this long distance work and while it may kill us both a little inside it has been worth it. The pain I go through when I’m away from him is better than not having him at all and the best thing is I know he feels the same. I look forward to what the rest of the year has in store for us and all the years after that.